Scarcity or Abundance

Worth is not earned through performance; it’s remembered through presence.

When I feel the urge to carve my worth out of the world (to prove that I am significant, valid, and worthy of taking up space) I know I’m seeing a familiar survival pattern. This is not failure, it’s the nervous system’s way of organizing around scarcity and neglect. A way of relating that was necessary to cope, but can never lead to true confidence, love, or abundance.

This old programming runs on an endless search for validation. The belief that I must keep proving, striving, and shaping myself in order to survive while the life I long to flourish in remains just out of reach.

The shift comes when I return to my body. When I become present to that programming and offer it something new to organize around. I no longer feel stuck in performing for what I might receive. It’s there that worthiness begins to integrate, not as something earned, but as something remembered. An instinctual, inherited worth that has always lived within my cells.

I’m learning the difference between coping mechanisms and intuition. Coping mechanisms echo how I needed to be in order to survive. Intuition and innate design remind me who I am. And when I listen there, abundance feels less like striving for more, and more like resting in what’s already true.