Inward Burn

I give and give, it's a selfish give. It's a give that asks for love in return.
I distort myself like a noble act, while underneath I'm a slow inward burn.

To give is to gain but what gain do I seek? To give and to seek seems a broken pursuit.
To seek a true self first before the outpour, was not an option, or so I was taught.
Yet how can I truly give, without motive to get, when all I seek is oil on my head.